It took a couple of months, but I was finally bit by the blogging bug again today. Just to sort things out visually instead of just in my head.
I came to a sort of epiphany today, and to be quite frank I'm overcome with a sense of apathy. I have little twinges of sadness at the thought of being replaced (more like being put as a firm second place), but the more I think of it, the more it really doesn't matter. Maybe I realized it was happening a while ago, and just now let myself realize it.
I no longer feel the need to impress anyone, to live life anyone's way but my own. I don't have a problem being alone (well, as alone as my children will let me be), and while I love company, I don't feel the need to seek it out. My door is always open to friends, and at this point I think that they would/should know that. I hope that that didn't come across as harsh as I think it did, but its the only way I could think to word it.
Going in another direction, I think my shopping days are over for a while. We found an amazing house today, and it sort of slapped me across the face that we should be moving in about 6 months. That means we have to save as much money as we possibly can as quickly as we can for inspection, appraisal, etc etc; and thats only if we can get away with financing closing costs! So I'm going to be sticking as close to home as possible, focusing on my kids, on my workouts, and on not spending money. Goodbye Starbucks, your services are no longer afforded :(
